Being Scared Of The Future

While looking at my numerous assignments for Game ART Design, i have began thinking of what i wanted to do in life. In the 9th grade, i assumed that this is what i would be fine with doing since I liked the look of many games and models I cannot say that it has been an easy ride so far but it has definitely given me some time to think. It could just be because of online school but i am slowly losing my ambition. I still remember when i Was in my small seat in the back with Glen and Britannia and i definitely miss it and them. I was able to create so many situations in my head and enjoy myself while Working! its what everyone dreams of. Now that i am on my own through out the process, without someone to drill my ideas and thoughts into, while my imagination has not dulled, my ambition to express it has. I never believed i was the type of person who would reliably be able to do something even though it is what i want to be. I always have my ideas and Thoughts ready to go and talk about for hours. Maybe I wasn't to be the one that was to do any work but simply give my impression and ideas, give my best detail in order to express my vision into the creation of another person. Is that even possible? allowed? I doubt it. I want to create a manga but guess what? i cannot draw. Which is the main point, and i feel i cannot tell a story too well. Which is the....other point. When you boil it down, I don't really have many different types of Ambition to learn to do different things, but i know that i am going to have to learn to do something and submit into the ways of the world or die. I hate how this world can be so black and white. I am afraid that what im doing in my art classes will be my downfall. I will become invested into My piano and GAD and fail in those two Paths and life and have nothing to come back on. I feel like those are my only two options, Be a face in the crowd or be poor. I in all honesty